People consider me a very positive person, and one who adds inspiration and light to their life. Spiritual, heartfelt pursuits, dried up inside me 6 months ago, upon the convergence of a devastating new diagnoses of Lichen Sclerosus, new symptoms of IBS and IC and some other very difficult life circumstances that just took me down.. I have known for a long time that I was either clinically, chronically suffering with major depression or at the very least, had some serious issues that keep making me very sick beyond my diagnoses of Fibromyalgia. I have been fighting them, running from them, and ignoring all signs hoping it would just go away so that I could just lead a normal life. What a joke!

Now that I think about it, I have gone through some rather traumatic events over the past two years. I lost my mother, a home, and my last child “left the nest”. Another daughter has been going through brain cancer…yet we praise God for all the support and blessings that touch her life.

I crashed and burned..truly I did, and I am not complaining, but rather reporting where I have been for so long. I have been so extremely tired…. Can you relate? After having fibro for 25+ years I learned I have adrenal exhaustion. The last 6 months have been so bad that I have laid down in a fog staring at the TV. I could not concentrate on reading, writing for my blogs, social media, or the family and have had no interest in anything except sleep.

Where the HELL did I go!? My family has missed me for quite some time, and maybe you can relate to this. It’s called Isolating yourself from the world. I actually think I might have had what they used to call a nervous breakdown. For the past 9 months, every time I have gone in to my doctor (every 90 days) I’ve filled out the mandatory depression questionaire, and if there had been a box for “take me to the loony bin” some days… I think I may have been admitted for Suicidal thoughts, hopelessness, and feelings of complete and utter worthlessness  that occupied my mind most of the time. These thoughts felt like aliens, yet they just wouldn’t go away. It was horrible.
I grew up in the 60`s and 70 `s when the terminology “nervous breakdown” was still in use. I don’t think anyone says such a strange thing anymore… However, it makes me smile and giggle, because back then it was also used kind of “tongue in cheek”. My mom used to say “Ok, I’m ready for my nervous breakdown now! After taking all the grandchildren to a restaurant when they were little. Yes, that is crazy making!
I remember one of my friend’s moms disappearing for several months to her bedroom, while everyone in her family kept things going during her mother’s nervous breakdown as they referred to it.I think in her case, it was a real one. We never saw her. I only met my friend’s mother once, and other than that she was in her bedroom. I remember thinking how weird that was, but now can completely understand. While isolating ourselves is not the healthiest thing to do, it’s just what we do sometimes. Of course it’s always better to be around your family, stay active and fight your condition, sometime you have to stop running from the place you know you’re going to end up anyway. When you need peace and a lot of additional must just do it.

What’s the first moral to this story? While laying down all these months in this thick fog, moments of clarity came to me. One that kept coming was “Surrender… you don’t have to fight so hard, and you can still live well”. What we resist we usually get more of. The mental and emotional stress I have put on myself all my life to be “normal” and not accept my illness, has put a Ten Ton Weight on my chest. Sooner or later you just have to crack.

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I have been a blogger for some time now, and as I reflect back, it’s probably over 7 years when I add in all the articles and forums I wrote on. It’s been a long time since I have posted here. I took some time and started another blog and got very wrapped up in internet marketing. I through myself into it completely and lived it night and day. It became a true passion. The financial rewards were nowhere near worth (for me) the stress and toll it took on me over a two year time period. It seemed that all the progress I have made with my health came crashing down, and finally, within a few weeks time I was fighting a whole new level of new symptoms. I do believe that many people with our type of chronic pain CAN and do manage internet business very well. My body just cannot handle the stress, and maybe I’ll find something that is far less stressful, but I don’t think it exists.
So it’s been months and months since I have touched my computer. I will go more in depth in another post, but suffice it to say I WAS BURNT OUT, and became very, very sick!
The one thing I DO KNOW… Is that I LOVE TO WRITE.
I am welcoming the refreshing opportunity to blog again and share what’s in my heart. I may make some changes cosmetically to the blog to reflect what I want to express.

With Love Always,

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When you have Fibro and Chronic Pain  like we do, you’re always in search of inspiration and resources right? Felicia is someone who took her “illness” on with an attitude of self empowerment that I related to immediately. We always have a CHOICE each moment as to how we are going to respond, react and deal with what life is handing us, and that especially goes for being in PAIN.

I love what Felicia says on her blog :

“Giving up on the joys of life is simply not an option that I see. I have found it somewhat hard to find first hand accounts about fibromyalgia that are positive in nature. Sure, there are some articles out there in Fibromyalgia Aware (was later discontinued) and Arthritis Today, but I like the instant gratification of online info. I hope you will find the personal accounts, tips and information that I share to be positive and helpful.

Although my main focus is to help others with fibromyalgia and other chronic conditions, I also hope to raise awareness. The more awareness there is, the more understanding and empathy from others, research and solutions will come. I have seen the impact on these in the last decade and it gives me great hope for what the future will hold! So, join me on my quest to live a happy, successful life with minimal pain!”

This is exactly how I hope to help you as well. I want to bring awareness, but empower you to seek out the truth, and fierce zest for life, even if we do have fibromyalgia!

I LOVE this about FeliciaFibro, and want to thank her for her tireless efforts to inform us, and provide resources to the Arthritis and Chronic communities..Spoonies Unite!!

Make sure you go and check out this amazing blog, and take advantage of all Felicia has to share.

We Love You Felicia!


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Hiromi Shinya, MD is well known as the developer of the field of colonoscopic surgery (the Shinya Technique). He performed the first non-invasive colon surgery. Using his own invention of the colonoscope, he discovered the ability to both examine and operate on the colon without abdominal incision.

Dr. Shinya is Clinical Professor of Surgery at Albert Einstein Collage of Medicine and Chief of the Endoscopy Unit of Beth Israel Hospital in New York, as well as an advisor for Maeda Hospital and Hanzomon Gastrointestinal Clinic in Japan. A native of Japan, Dr. Shinya received his medical education both in Japan and in the United States

Dr. Shinya, now past 70, continues an active daily practice of medicine, spending half of each year in New York City and the other half in Tokyo. He is Japan’s most famous doctor and treats members of Japan’s royal family and top government officials. His practice in the United States also includes celebrities and Presidents. He is Vice Chairman of the Japanese Medical Association in the USA, and much in demand as a speaker internationally.

The Enzyme Factor is the first book in English by this major international medical expert, is based on his Japanese bestseller How to Live Long and Never Be Sick, which has sold over two million copies since its publication in 2006.

Dr. Shinya’s Menu for Good Health

“ A good dietary health” is the most important factor for you to enjoy a long and healthy life.
Good dietary health keeps one’s stomach and intestine clean and prevents the body from
decreasing the so called “Miracle Enzymes”.

Good Eating Habits

Good eating habits are essential for a healthy life.
This means maintaining “The Miracle Enzymes” and keeping the intestines clean. Let’s review
your eating habits; What, When, and How do you eat?

Do you understand and control your
dietary life?
Dr. Shinya recommends dividing food intake to

90% fruits and vegetables and 10% protein.

  • The points for good eating are:
    1. Eat unpurified grains or cereals.
    2. Eat more vegetables.
    3. More seafood, less meat.
    4. Eat raw foods.
    5. Do not eat oxidized foods.
    6. Eat fermented foods.
    7. Avoid milk and milk products.
    8. Take Vitamins and Minerals
    9. Be disciplined with the food you eat.

Remember, you are what you eat!


  • Water is essential for your health.
  • Drinking “good water” such as mineral water; especially hard water which has much calcium and magnesium keeps your body at an optimal alkaline PH.  Optimal quantity is about 2 -3 cups about 1 hour before each meal.
  • Good excretion
  • Start a daily habit to remove ‘intestinal pollutants.’ and to clean out your systems regularly.
  • Correct Exercise.Exercise is good for your health.
  • Walking (about 2.5 miles/day), swimming, tennis, golf, stretch, etc.
  • Rest / Sleep – Take enough time to sleep.
  • Relax mentally and physically -Being Stress-Free / Be Happy!
  • Positive thinking increases one’s immunity. Conversely, Negative thinking decreases one’s immunity.
  • Be good to yourself.
  • Saying ‘NO’ to release your stress.


My personal connection to Adelle Davis is one I that I feel rather obligated to pay forward as a legacy of sorts; one of great importance, because one single person made such an impact on the future of the way we think about food and our bodies. I was raised in the 60’s when Adelle was in her peak of popularity in certain circles. Nobody knew what true nutrition or “healthy” eating was back then really, and there were conflicting opinions about how to feed newborns, toddlers and children especially. My mother being the progressive, hip, well read woman that she was, always stayed on top of the latest innovations, and Adelle Davis was considered “cutting edge” thinking back then.

Adelle Davis, one of the country’s best known nutritionists, was an American pioneer in the fledgling field of nutrition in the 50’s and 60’s.  She advocated whole unprocessed foods, criticized food additives, and claimed that dietary supplements were essential to good health.

Adelle Davis was the author of four best selling books: “Let’s Cook It Right”, “Let’s Have Healthy Children”, “Let’s Get Well”, and “Let’s Eat Right To Keep Fit”.

I have heard stories, and could not possibly remember, but my mother made Adelle’s famous baby formula for me, which consisted of goat’s milk, black strap molasses, and brewer’s yeast. Blahhhh!!! I am sure they flipped coins for changing those nappies!!! I was the ONLY kid at school with whole grain bread on my sandwich, no sugar or sweets in my lunchbox, and would go on  trips to “The Health Food Store” after school to buy fruit leather or granola for a real treat..oh boy!! Now granola back then was not what people think of it now…it was so much better, with lots of seeds, nuts and dried fruit! Some time I will publish a true granola recipe on here.

Mom relaxed a little when I got older, because of social pressure, BUT the FOUNDATION was laid inside me nutritionally. This fantastic foundation, both mental and physical, has been with me my entire life, and I have passed it on to my children as well. Have I been perfect? Far from it. I did not restrict their diets at all. I did however educate them on what was healthy, and how to make healthy choices from a very early age. All three of my children love vegetables and it’s because they enjoyed from the time they started solid food, and trained their palettes for them. I know I am judging, but I cringe when I see mothers giving their children kool-aid in bottles, candy and sugar laiden things to quiet toddlers, and processed packaged baby foods and snacks etc.

Adelle Davis was a visionary. When going back through her history it is amazing to realize the impact Adelle had on the most recent and popular diets that are the craze now. Dr. Barry Sears, author of “The Zone” speaks very highly of Adelle Davis and her impact on his discoveries. Thirty years ago Adelle Davis was a supporter of Dr. Atkins, founder of “The Atkins Diet”. Adelle Davis was the pioneer of the nutritional revolution. Her teachings and writings influenced people striving for health and wellness long before our time.

Adelle Davis’s Nutritional Philosophy

Adelle lived and wrote in the post-World War II era, which was enthralled with freedom of choice. The motto of the Health Food Movement, if indeed one of the many could be chosen, was “Freedom of Choice in Nutrition.” Blind freedom is “not freedom, but license”, and Adelle was determined that her clients and readers would not be in the dark about the scientific basis of nutritional education.

Adelle Davis gives us the kernel of the research in nutrition, based on experiments and scientific writings that she read voluminously and thoroughly. She received her Masters Degree in Biochemistry from the University of Southern California, and practiced professional nutritional counseling for 35 years, applying to thousands of cases, the solid scientific research she had made herself thoroughly responsible for.

Adelle Davis noted that the body does best when all of the known nutrients have been available, as well as fresh food sources for obtaining nutrients yet to be discovered by science. She writes so often, “When the diet is made adequate…” The key to this philosophy is knowing the amounts of nutrients that the body requires under given conditions, one can make educated decisions about what substances to include in the diet. This is true freedom of choice in nutrition. Without knowing the research, one cannot judge what amounts are necessary to avoid vitamin deficiencies.

The crux of her findings boil down to this: deficiencies in vitamins, mineral elements, or other nutrients can cause illness that is reversed when the nutrients are added to the diet in an educated way, and “when the diet is made adequate” in all other respects.

Since the 60’s and 70’s the world has gone through a nutritional awakening, with thousands and thousands of authors, programs, supplements, diets etc. Health food stores that used to be in small strip malls are getting harder to find, at least where I live in Salt Lake City, with the overtaking of Whole Foods Market and other large chains offering us a full line of everything nutritious and organic under the sun! In urban areas, most restaurants have organic produce in regular super markets, and a health food and supplement section. Restaurants are catering to nutritional eating and health menu choices, or even entire faire that is for those clientele.

The world has arrived at the conclusion that we must take care of the temple that is our body, with supplementation, a healthy diet, plenty of sleep and lots of exercise. Adelle Davis dedicated her life to contributing to  changing the consciousness of America, and I believe she accomplished what she set out to do.



Did you know that high acidity levels in your body can lead to chronic pain, disease and illness? Acid is bombarding us from everywhere-polluted air, exposure to chemicals, negative thoughts and emotions, refined sugar, processed foods, dyes, hormones in meats, just to name a few. So it’s important that we counteract those acidity levels with proper alkalinity to achieve a balanced pH level. There are several sound and simple ways to do this. Alkalizing the body can be achieved through diet, or even more simply drinking alkalized, ionized water.

Most people are unaware that they have large amounts of acid forming in their system, aside from the hydrochloric acid which helps to digest our food, a very necessary good acid. A delicate pH balancing act goes on in our bodies requiring an exact number on the pH scale (7.35) for our blood to keep up alive. If the body is too acidic, nutrients are not able to be transported properly, cells can be starved of needed oxygen, and a chain of events can result in disease. Disease actually thrives in an acidic environment, and conversely, cannot live in an alkaline environment.


There is a word that’s thrown around a lot these days! That’s oxidation. An anti-oxidant is simply a molecule that can fight an oxidant or free radical which is an unstable, very damaging molecule to your cells. Did you know that your body can produce plenty of its own antioxidants when given the proper environment? Our body is a perfect machine! When the unstable molecules are replaced with the right kind of stable molecules, homeostasis occurs.

Antioxidants fight oxidation and keep your cells healthy. So with both antioxidants and properly balanced alkalinity levels, your body is able to achieve a natural state of balance on its own. Isn’t that great? [click to continue…]

 Are you feeding your cells? There is no debate that good nutrition helps you feel better when you’re in pain, especially when your immune system is compromised.There are so many ways so get good nutrition into your body, but if you’re not feeling that great, you may not have the energy, or the forethought to prepare healthy meals and take lots of supplements. The fastest and simplest way to get LOTS of POWER PACKED nutrients into your body is with either juicing, or making your own GREEN SMOOTHIES. You might be doing this already, and if you are, I commend you!!

If you have not bought a juicer, we recommend a super simple gadget that’s budget friendly too, called the Nutri Bullet. You can pick it up at Wal Mart or go directly to the site by the same name. The Vita-Mix is the granddaddy of juicer-blenders, and does the same thing but costs 5 times the price. The difference is that you’re making individual servings with the Nutri bullet, as far as I can tell. The greens, fruit and seeds or nuts are completely liquified, but you’re getting 100% of the LIVE raw nutrients that instantly feed your cells!

I never thought GREEN Smoothies could taste so incredibly good! We’ve (the family) been making them for breakfast for about a week, and I can totally tell the difference in my energy levels, and weight loss. Yes, we have done healthy shakes for years, which have mostly been protein drinks. I decided to do a little research into exactly why green smoothies are so good for you. [click to continue…]

I was directed to an angel of sorts today. She’s a wealth of support, knowledge, compassion, and firsthand fibromyalgia experience.

Her name is Tami Stackelhouse

Twitter handle: @tamicat

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Tami is a certified Health Coach with an emphasis on nutrition and weight loss.

I get very clearly from reading her site that she works with each woman individually to assess what her needs are, and taylors a program accordingly.

Just some of the topics recently covered (and there are a wide variety):

Tami’s personal story is very inspiring, and one that most of us can relate to. I for one began to tear up when she honestly spoke of her mono symptoms in the 8th grade (been there), her exhaustion at her job (how many can relate too??) and how her amazing husband rode in on a white horse and saved her. Yay!!
I encourage you to go to Tami’s site and get to know her. Follow her on Twitter, and ReTweet some of her inspiring and informative blog posts/tweets to your friends!
If you are fortunate enough to connect with an authentic and special blogger such as Tami Stackelhouse, someone you clearly sense is on your side…get to know them! They have no agenda but to be there for your well being, health and support and as a caring influence in the world.


A very dear friend and nutritional practitioner reminded me that this upcoming week is “National Women’s Health Week”, May 13 – 19 I thought it would be a great time to revive my posts on this blog, since my health has taken such a good turn in the last 6 months! I can’t begin to express the depth of gratitude I feel for my better health, and reduced pain. It’s a relief and a pleasure to participate in life again on so many levels!

National Women’s Health week speaks to prevention and care for women, not post illness care, medication, surgery etc. More and more women are learning the value of taking preventative care of themselves, over the age of 30, with mammograms, regular self breast exams, blood pressure cholesterol and other tests.

Women are mindful to eat right, exercise, reduce stress, meditate, smile and laugh more, and enjoy their families as a means of a maintaining good mental health. I attribute most positive changes in my health to prevention, and anticipating issues before they arise. The times when I have not paid adequate attention to these things has brought me great grief and physical pain from fibromyalgia.

I went looking for information on National Women’s Health Week and found quite a bit. National Women’s Health Week is this coming week beginning May 13 through the 19th. The details are to follow that I found on a great site called

About National Women’s Health Week

What is National Women’s Health Week?

National Women’s Health Week is a weeklong health observance coordinated by the U.S. Department of Health and Human Services’ Office on Women’s Health. It brings together communities, businesses, government, health organizations, and other groups in an effort to promote women’s health. The theme for 2012 is “It’s Your Time.” National Women’s Health Week empowers women to make their health a top priority. It also encourages women to take the following steps to improve their physical and mental health and lower their risks of certain diseases:

Why celebrate National Women’s Health Week?

We all have a role to play in women’s health. Women often serve as caregivers for their families, putting the needs of their spouses, partners, children, and parents before their own. As a result, women’s health and well-being becomes secondary. As a community, we have a responsibility to support the important women we know and do everything we can to help them take steps for longer, healthier, and happier lives.

Women can easily take charge of their health, thanks to the Affordable Care Act, a landmark health care reform law enacted in 2010. This law gives Americans greater choice and better control over their own health care and includes changes that are especially meaningful to women and their families. For instance, new plans cover vital preventive services, including mammograms, colon cancer screenings, and well-woman visits with no out-of-pocket costs. It also ensures women can see an OB-GYN without a referral. To learn more about the law and your health insurance options, visit

When is National Women’s Health Week?

The 13th annual National Women’s Health Week kicks off on Mother’s Day, May 13, 2012 and is celebrated until May 19, 2012. National Women’s Checkup Day is Monday, May 14, 2012.


How is National Women’s Health Week celebrated?

The nationwide observance is celebrated across America in communities, neighborhoods, towns, cities, counties, hospitals, health centers, businesses, schools, places of worship, recreation centers, and online. Anyone who wants to promote women’s health can celebrate. Organizations large and small hold events, such as free screenings and health fairs, give out educational materials, issue proclamations, conduct media outreach, spread the word through social media, and more.




A simple lesson that my dear mother taught me years ago, proved itself quite well recently. The most beautiful part was that it was proven through the person who taught it to me!! My mom always said:

“The surest way to feel better when you are depressed is to take the focus off yourself and put it on someone in need of help..You’ll quickly forget your own problems, and remember that you play a larger role in the world, that can make a significant difference”


Growing up I remember my mom telling me to help others and stop focusing on myself and my needs, as young people normally do. Kids are the center of their own universe, and if we are not careful, even adults can be as well. I admit that I fought the demon of this self focus “living in a bubble” like attitude, as an adult, but only when in a depressed state. Depression can be like a snake that tightly wraps itself around you, and isolation is the tendency that accompanies this snake’s habitat. When we are down, blue, emotional and even sad, the last thing we want to do is reach out to others in any way, much less offer them assistance. From my own personal experience I can tell you I confuse my loved ones, family and friends as I need their love and support at that time the most…yet I push it away.

Life has away of offering lessons, or healing opportunities, whether we are ready, open or even willing to accept them. Just before Christmas, I got a call that my mother was suddenly very ill, and would most likely pass away within a few weeks. My own welfare completely went out the window at that point. All that mattered was getting to California to be by my mother’s bedside. Though in pain, I could hear my mother’s voice telling me “it’s time to take the focus off yourself, and be of service to someone in need”…and that I did.

My daughter and I got on the next plane and got to her granny right away. For the next two weeks we took 3 hour shifts during the night, administering morphine to her, and never leaving her side. The energy I needed was simply there as I called upon it, and has been ever since. I seem to have a renewed strength, attitude and outlook. You just never know what experience will pull you out of the dullness, and into the brilliance of regular everyday life, with all its glorious simplicity. I am grateful for this lesson, and thank my mom for teaching me something so powerful.

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